Everything Hurts

Well, that's that: I soared through my PMR trial exams, and i wasn't quite happy with my performance, especially on Malay, Chinese, and Geography, which i wasn't feeling very confident on getting As.

Sigh, after 1 month and 3 weeks of internet-isolation, i truly feel as if im a changed person. For one, i lost my "style" of writing my blog, which brings me to hate myself for the unability to think of anything to write, sigh. Same goes with my typing, which detoriated from NOT typing for so long.

Meanwhile, Teoh the frisbee instructor's going back to KL tomorrow, which means that we (frisbee-players) are like.. so unguided.. But nahh, i could contact him anytime if i needed assistance, can't i? Oh well, to help me survive, Teoh gave me a frisbee rulebook accompanied by a frisbee CD filled with some videos to help out newbies. And, i was like - appointed - the "Sin-Min-School-Representative-For-Frisbee", which means that i could contact the representative from other schools if i ever wanted a frisbee game, cool. And oh if any of you are interested in learning-and-playing frisbee you could contact me.. XD..

And, i think im facing the lack-of-sleep consequences. My blood pressure was like so low and i keep getting cramps everytime i jump, imagine that, o.o.. And probably because of the lack-of-sleep too, i had rashes on my arm and leg. Be at ease, they're gone now.

Look, i'm really out of things to say, unless you wanna hear about my "sweet time" without my internet.. Well, its all Age of Empires II and Need For Speed Carbon for me, that's it.

I miss the internet.. I really do..

08.08.08 08:08

Behold, the 8 Wonders!The Beijing Olympics officially starts today! Wee yeah! XD..

Whatever. I won't actually watch every broadcast of the olympics anyway..
*Editted: Okay, i enjoyed the opening ceremony A LOT! Geez its cool!

And oh, i remade the BracesException (on behalf of the request of
Doraemon)

Here're two versions of it:

Braces Exception (Larger Label)

Braces Exception (Larger Label + Photocopy effect)

Well, frisbee! (Omg, im frisbee-mad too now! Alamak!)

I went to the frisbee training at the park again today (That doesn't say much, as i go EVERY practice, lol.. enthusiastic me, eh?) and guess what, there was a hardcore malay frisbee player we've never seen before giving a talk to us "newbies".

I'll make this straight to the point: That guy talked a lot about frisbee, and about the popularity of frisbee in the US. According to him, if any of us actually trains hard to be a hardcore frisbee player, we might be sport-respected in the US, unfortunately not in Malaysia.

It was then he indicated me, and said "You for example, if you eat more, go to the gym seriously and get some muscle, you might be able to be like those US guys, cuz you have the HEIGHT." *Glows with pride, XD*

Game started with me being in the same team with my synchronized teammate, Aaron. The others consist of: Zinn, JWLim, and a Malay girl called Nadhira. Perfect passing, cool blocking, super-fast-running by Aaron, super-high-jumping-and-catching by me - those are the main reasons we flattened the other team at first (The other team players are: the instructor Teoh, a Sinmin Private school student Jas (he's a guy!), and three Malay girls. However, i tripped over one of the Malay girls, minor-sprained my ankle, and things weren't looking so good for us after that.

No matter, im still contented with the final 6-4 score before everyone went home, mwahahahaha.

Teoh told us that we played perfectly, and that he was planning to have a friendly-competition between schools there sometime during the one-week-holiday soon. I think he might be hoping for a near miracle as that's the week DIRECTLY BEFORE the PMR trial exam. Some of us weren't very happy upon hearing that.

Oh crap that reminds me again - the PMR exams.

Argh.. Seriously, im getting more anxious by every passing minute. I keep assuring myself that i would "start studying my History notes tonight" but i don't seem to be able to. According to JWLim, she said that History is the easiest subject to get an A, only if i had the initiative to study it (but i dont.. >.<).

Who knows, i might really start studying my History notes from now on.. Probably without the presence of my internet i might study better, PROBABLY.

Im out of ammunition, reloading, cya all next time.

Probably won't blog again till after my PMR trial exams, i dunno.

*P/S¹: Thanks to Zinn for the card! Really appreciated it!

*P/S²: Thanks to my sister for the career advice! Cya and goodluck again in KL!

*P/S³: I HATE YOU TELEKOM!!

Okay, bye.

"Love - The Undefined Emotion" - Essay by Ice™

“… There will be no white flag above my door, I’m in love, and always will be …”‘Dido – White Flag’, the music keeps ringing in my ears through the headphone glued to my ears. This song was considered a classic which I heard years ago, but now did I truly understand the words contained in the seemingly simple lyrics.
Love – What does it truly mean? Is it a passionate scene on television which shows a couple kissing? Is it a simple act of saying “I miss you” between long-term-separated family members? Or is it even - the love a mother shows insignificantly, undyingly for their children?

Love is a mysterious emotion, simple yet complicated, powerful yet dangerous. Love might be able to make one do something risky just to ensure the safety of their dear ones, but might even misguide one into blind temptation – by buying things they don’t need, just to impress people that they don’t really love.

Cruelly to me it seems, I keep seeing underage couples holding hands as I walk along the school corridor every morning. Thoughts flew through my mind: Do these people really understand the definition of ‘Love’? Do their seemingly sincere ‘I love you’s truly denote their undying love for each other? Don’t they realize that the adolescence stage of growth is a phase to test one’s self-discipline as we get attracted to the other sex? Do they?

To me, love is a truly simple thing. One doesn’t have to write out the big letters “I LOVE YOU FOREVER” or even buy expensive gifts for their partner just to show their love. In my opinion, love is the furtive, unobvious bond between two individuals who truly care for each other - It may be just a simple “Get well” or “Good luck” card, or even an eye-contact that utters many unspoken words. Recently, I had a friend of mine who plucked up her courage and gave her mother the best gift a mother could wish for – a hug during Mother’s Day. Just a simple hug, just a single hug in a few “hug-less” years - that act, in my point of view, shows love – the unbounded love between a mother and a daughter.

It is not to be denied that love is an alluring emotion. Take myself, for example – I admit that I can’t escape from the temptation of the “acts of love” that couples do – kissing, declaring their love for each other, relying on each other during hard times.. Numerous times, I couldn’t help thinking, wondering: How would life be if I could have a girlfriend of my own, to be able to hold her hand whenever I am distressed, to lend a shoulder for her to cry on, to feel her presence beside me that pushes me on in my life.. I might just be deceived or misguided by the opposite-gender-attraction of adolescence, I don’t really know myself.

Fifteen years old is probably too early, I told myself. Plenty years of education in front of me, and an unknown career waiting to be secured. Who knows what might happen then. Focused, determined, I continue waiting till the time comes. But first – I looked at my untouched History notes piled up on my study table – I think I should concentrate on my upcoming PMR exams, and then we’ll talk about that later.

-IceGlacial
aka RuiYou.

Uploaded from my aunt's computer, check out the older posts please!

Three weeks more to go, and im starting to get more nervous..

I would have uploaded my blog entries at school back then, but.. I don't know why does the internet keep evading me - there's been an IP configuration error in the school network, meaning no internet for me..

Doubtless, im now mutating into the person i was last time - emotional, desperate, sad, desperate.. I can't even write happy blog entries now.. And i think this has much to do with my loss of the internet for one.. one.. freaking.. month..

On a lighter side (But still dark), my pendrive was drowned (nearly) by a friend the day before yesterday, XD. Got it back today, and its still in fine performance, except for the fact showing some cellophane tapes holding the casing together, lol.. My guess is that my friend opened up the case to dry it, and the casing couldnt fit in nicely anymore. All thanks to the absurd casing of "Mini"-branded pendrives: they don't use screws, unlike Kingston brands that save a LOT of trouble..

On a much brighter side, I got first in my class! XD, refrain yourselves from congratulating me, as it was kinda "unearned" for me and i don't quite deserve it..

Okay, no more brighter sides. Any brighter and i'm going blind.. Speaking of that, im hoping that i can get a new specs these days, the old frame is kinda small for my face (crap). As i said, im just HOPING to get a new one, so i don't know yet.

Btw, my whole body aches now, mainly because of frisbee. There isnt anyone who doesnt get a bruised hand after playing it. I got extra though, a Malay guy in his twenties played frisbee 1 on 1 with me yesterday, and the purple bruises on my hands and legs are proof of his throwing with the power of.. say, 2 cows, wateva. And my complexion is darker than ever, im definitely not complaining, as i like it that way.

Well, that's all.. I'm going for my braces-appointment now..

Catch y'all later.

P/S: Oh yeah, as said in the title, scroll down and check for my older posts, those i drafted while my internet was gone.

And for your information, my internet STILL ISNT BACK.