Gears in Motion

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Time passes so fast.

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I still remember the first day of our holidays so clear - where everybody including me were whining.

"Sooo boring la this holidays, first day and i'm bored to death already.. Dunno whether i can survive the holidays?"

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A few trips to Singapore, KL, Gua Kelam, Banting, Johor, etc etc..

A few thrice-weekly badminton practices..

A routine of daily blogging, chatting, (but not much gaming sadly)..

Till..

Bang, and the dust is gone!

And here we come to the late part of the one-and-a-half month holidays.

I just had my monthly orthodontic appointment the day before yesterday. Has one month really passed? I mean - i still remember my last appointment so clearly!

Has somebody bewitched time to go extra fast?

Or.. am i just too slow?

Geez, the start of another year looms near - followed by many new subjects, many new friends (probably), many new teachers (probably NOT), and many new experiences (hope so).

And i still can't believe that time passed so fast.

Am i the glad person who's happy because the holidays are coming to an end, and i can return to my normal "hectic" school life instead of being stuck in the monotonous holidays where i can't meet my friends freely?

Or am i the person in the corner sulking and dreading the start of a new year - where i might be overwhelmed by so many new things and new kinds of stress?

As i've said plenty of times - age 15's where i've learnt a lot, i've tried a lot, i've been very sad at some times, and i've been very happy at some times.

You could say that the age that i love the most is 15 - for the time being.

Do i savour my past, or do i try to enjoy myself walking towards my future?


"When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there."
Which brings me to my next thought.

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Best friend.

I doubt i have one.
Yet i hope i have one.

My best friend is myself, i could trust only myself, no more others.
Or are there?
Well, i haven't found him / her yet,
OR i might have found him / her, but i didn't realise it,
OR, i might've found him / her, but i've just lost him / her.


"Friendship is one mind in two bodies."
If we accept that the above statement is true, does it mean that i've never experienced friendship before?

One mind in two bodies.

To think about it, can a person really understand me? Can he / she predict what i'm about to do the next moment?

Can you?

I guess my outer disguise is what prevents me from getting a "best friend".
I guess my concealment of the inner me is what prevents others from knowing who i am.

Since my primary school years till now, i've never got the experience of having a "best friend" - like those you meet everyday, chat, and play together, no quarrels, etc.

Friends in my life just come and go - one year they're close to you, and the next year they wouldn't know you anymore.

And, friends in my life have different "groups" -

- for the "Tech" group - CCM
- for the "Art" group - Inn
- for the "Blog" group - Yimin
- for the "Badminton" group - Mah
- for the "Frisbee" group - Aaron
- for the "Band" group - My whole band (Cat, Fish, Bunny, Jailman).
- for the "Voll- *STOP!*

Okay, stop, stop it before i go too far. There's sooo many other friends of mine to be named, but i couldn't possibly fit them into the confined space of my blog.
(Sorry if your name isn't in this "list", but as i said, i couldn't possibly put all of you in..)

Friends - they're everywhere.
True friends - they're hidden somewhere.

As i said - for now, my best friend is myself.
Till someone proves otherwise.

Hmm, i think i'm having one of those "Late-December-Blues".

Probably not me alone, but most of my mates too, XD.

Everybody's changing.. I've changed..

Till then.

*Note: Geez, this post just feels so emo.