Of Careers and My Future.

I suppose most of us - when we were in our childhood, replied to this question "What would you like to be when you grow up?" as..

"A businessman!"
"A scientist!"
"A teacher!"
"A superstar!"

.. And so on.

No doubt, i have already made up my mind early this year. Perhaps im just obediently following my parents and my sister's advice - that is, to plan my future early; Or perhaps its because i've been getting quite interested in planning my future; Or perhaps its because of the legendary KKLim giving me tips for university and my career. I don't know which.

Well, i decided, i decided, and i decided - and my decision was to enter the business sector - that is, either an accountant, actuary or a financial advisor, i don't which i'd want to be yet.

But does my decision stay the same yet?

Lets face it. Although my math's standard is considered okay, i only do maths in school.

Not much maths at home.

And i thought present interests have a basis on future careers?

Someone who loves to sing may become a singer in the future.
Someone who loves instruments may play in a band in the future.
Someone who loves mushy, brown, smelly stuff may work as a oxidation-tank-worker next time. (You know, oxidation tank, najis, Indah Water - got what i meant already?)

Someone who doesn't do maths at home, someone who doesn't spend his time working out formulae - unless someone asks him to, someone who whips up a calculator to find the answer for 13 x 4, may be an actuary in the future?

Do you think it might be possible?

Same goes with everything else - there HAS to be SOME possibilities for everything that might happen. Who knows, i could really shoot for the stars in the business sector someday.

But even if that's possible, would i ENJOY what i do?

A man that hates typing might not type a 1000-word essay for you, even if you give him a billion dollars.

Agreed?

Lets see then, what if i abandon my plan of being in the business sector..

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I could be a pro gamer, if i really put all my time in gaming - i could spend hours, days even staying glued to my computer, farming, training, and to sell accounts, to sell game gold for cash to friends. I could set up a site for powerleveling, game-gold-selling, game-item-selling, stuff.

But would i? Would my life be still a life? I'd be more of an "automated bot", doing the things that exactly bots do - trains someone's online-game-account day and night.

Would i still have time for family? For friends?

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I could be a blog designer. I could use my trustworthy PhotoShop and my meagre programming skills to design blogs for, say.. RM5 each (just an example). But how many people in this world would actually want someone to design their blogs? Why couldn't they just copy someone else's template and use it themselves?

Say.. if my income still isnt enough, i could open up to a larger scope - say, forum designing, game-site designing, etc etc. My chance of being needed for a job might be higher, but still, there's still another prospect - there're still PLENTY of other programmers, other page designers out there in the world. Competition would be tough..

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Or.. I could be an author. I would start writing books, making poems, whatever whatever. I could actually start writing a long novel now, and probably send them to a publisher or something.

I must be nuts -
Firstly, i don't think that i have enough initiative to write a story so long.
Secondly, i think that every kind of story, every kind of plot has been published before. Even if i write a story, People elsewhere might comment "Ah, isnt that the same plot as the book titled ABC i read yesterday? The same old 'a-handsome-guy-saved-the-whole-world-from-destruction-by-a-meteorite' plot.."
Thirdly, i doubt that any publishers will accept my work, unless i really STOOD OUT.

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When every other hope is gone, i could start improving my bassist skills by taking bass guitar lessons from now, and probably get into a band in the future. We could travel WORLDWIDE, and probably get famous, or whatever.

But, who would i turn to, to join a band? How could anyone predict that whether we'll succeed or just fail as another 'Chapalang Band'?

And yeah again, aren't there enough bands in the whole world already?
Why add myself to the list and increase the headaches and ear-aches of the human nation?

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Or, i could be a..

Okay, stop.

I haven't achieved anything except confusing myself further.
Should i abandon my initial plan to be an actuary / accountant / financial advisor?
Should i?
Would i ruin my life if i do so?
Or would i thrive?
Kinda lucky that i thought of this right now. Imagine me regretting when i'm Form 5 if i don;t think of it now.

Hmm, i think i should be a lecturer, seeing as im so talented in ranting and ranting, boring your ears and eyes.

IceGlacial out.

Taylor Swift - Love Story Lyrics

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

We were both young when I first saw you.

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Listen to the song and try to find my name. Yimin and AlwaysWithU found it already, so no answers from you both please~

It's like "Ruiyou".

Chao, have fun.